Last year I made a promise to myself. I am gonna be brave and I will do a bunch of things that scare me, but which are also going to help me and my life, moving forward. Since then, I went to see Michelle Obama and I learnt that the phrase I was looking for is: ‘I needed to Michelle up’.
So, I moved to another country, I met and talked to one of my idols and I became a Human Rights Speaker. And let me tell you, that the hardest part was, teaching my first class. It was one of the scariest things, I’ve ever done in my life. Going into a classroom in England, and teach about refugees and human rights to young people whose first language is English while for me it’s the second…it’s nerve-wracking. I have not yet mastered how to seem confident when standing in front of a class. But I did it anyway. I went to a primary school, taught 6 classes and had a blast. I wrote about this experience here.
Now, the “only” thing left on my to do list, was coming out. You see, I am bisexual and I didn’t know that until I turned 30 years old. Those years weren’t the easy part of my life. I was struggling with depression, I had a very difficult time fitting in and then I also discovered that I am bisexual. This was a rather challenging couple of years and it took me a lot, to survive and come out of it. I got very lucky and with the help of my little support system, I managed to win this fight. I came out to my friends, some part of my family and I started to turn my life around. Moving to the UK was a significant part of this journey. But I did move without telling my Mum about who I really am. It’s been more than 2 years since I know I’m bi and I still didn’t tell her.
And then, P!nk announced her tour!!!! Me and my Mum are loyal fans since the beginning of her career so I knew I need to get tickets for this concert and I am going to bring my Mum to the UK and we will go and see P!nk. All was in order. We got tickets for the Liverpool concert, we booked her flight and we started to plan the holiday. And it made me realise. I was looking forward to see P!nk in one of her tours for basically half of my life and it means the world to me, so…I don’t wanna go to the concert without coming out to my Mum.
If P!nk taught me one thing is how to be proud of who I am. Her journey and personality and her honesty is inspiring and I didn’t want to dishonour the meaning of all this and attend the concert without coming out to me mum. So I did. Two days ago, I came out. It went well, my mum is supportive but we have a journey ahead of us. Lots of conversation and learning together will help to evolve from here.
Thank you, P!nk for your music, for your presence and for everything you do. You stand up for people who can’t stand on their own, you give strength to people who don’t have it and you change people’s life for the better. You certainly did change mine and I hope, one day I can meet you and thank you in person. You are fantastic, thank you for helping me navigate through this life. Me and my Mum will see you tonight!!! Good luck on the show and happy pride!!